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Depression

Just last week a young man in my neighborhood committed suicide – Today I see a “need to know” story titled U.S. Suicide Rate Surges to a 30-year High – and I feel like there is something that people need to think about.

According to my doctor, Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain.  One that I’m currently working through myself and have had bouts of throughout the years.  My daddy passed away when I was 15.  He was my best friend.  There is a lot that he has missed in my life, both good and bad.  Then my mom passed about 12 years ago.  Again, so much she is missing in my life.  I’ve lost all my grandparents in between the time I lost my dad and now.  It’s hard.  Life isn’t easy.  I went to see a therapist who’s lasting message to me was “You are not an orphan.  Your parents didn’t choose to leave you – they had to go.”  Ok, I get it.  I get it.  I still repeat it to myself at least once a week.  But just because my head gets it, doesn’t mean that my heart understands.

When dealing with someone in a situation similar to mind, try to keep these facts in your mind.

1.) Yes, we know we have a support system and tons of people that love us and care about us.  We know we can lean on you for support, but you aren’t the person we are missing and we have to move beyond that fact before we can reach out to our support team.  It takes a strong heart to admit that we need help.

2.) Sometimes it’s not the hard things in life that make our life unbearable.  It’s the good things.  I’ve never been more down than when I want to pick up the phone and call my mom to tell her I got a raise or that my dog learned a new trick.  It’s not about being sad.  It’s about feeling sad and not sharing good news is just as bad as not sharing bad news.

3.) Being left alone can be helpful – It can also be the most hurtful thing.  I pull away.  I don’t like to talk about my feelings.  But I have friends that are relentless about texting me and making sure that even if I’m alone, they are always just a text, phone call or visit away.  I actually have several friends who check in with me daily.  Sometimes they are what keep me going.

4.) Talking about my parents is helpful if I choose to do it, but please don’t push the topic.  I loved my parents more than anything.  I’m an only child, so they were my playmates, study partners and friends.  Losing them feels like I lost a limb.  And it still has phantom pains.

5.) It gets easier – then it doesn’t.  That’s why I’m stuck in the cycle I’m currently in.  Like everyone else, we have good days and bad days.  I can go years without medicine and then one day something just switches in my head and I need help.  Thankfully, I have friends who can see this coming and they are there to encourage me to seek attention – I’ve been given the ultimatum to either see a therapist or go back on my medicine.  For me, that’s one of the most helpful things that could have happened at that time.  My friend could see the pain I was in and how I was able to cope with it better when I had assistance.  This approach wouldn’t help everyone, but for me…

6.) Something else that has been helpful for me is finding a way to reach out to others.  I love making other people happy.  It means the world to me.  I have a very giving heart.  I recently found a website called More Love Letters that encourages you to write letters to send to either people they email you about or just random letters.  I’ve found that I’m much more likely to do this on a “down day” since writing to cheer someone else up cheers me up.

Please note – I’m in no way a doctor and this is not medical advice.  This is just some of the things I wish more people knew about me.

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Thursday Thirteen – Things I Want to Learn

This meme no longer exists but I’m bring it back on my own…  Thirteen Things I want to Learn:

  1. How to Cook… Or how not to be afraid of my kitchen knives
  2. How to Paddle Board
  3. How to enjoy healthy eating
  4. How to love a good, long run again
  5. How to believe in myself
  6. How to dress – I know my boss would prefer no more hoodies!
  7. How to take care of my nails – I hate them long and never have them taken care of
  8. How to read multiple books at one time – I can only handle one and gravitate to the one I like the best
  9. How to enjoy my life outside of the office
  10. How to enjoy things alone – eating out, traveling, etc.
  11. Texas History – Growing up I knew my Tennessee and North Carolina history.  I’d love to find a class to learn my Texas history since I call this amazing state home now.
  12. How to drive in Dallas – or any other large city
  13. How to go with the flow

What about you?  What would you like to learn?

What do I want to be when I grow up?

This is a loaded question for me and has changed so greatly over the years that it’s surprising I have become anything at all. Up until about the 7th grade, all I wanted to be was a Navy pilot and Astronaut. I could tell you anything and everything you wanted to know about the aviation industry and the aerospace program. Most girls had teen stars hanging on their walls. I had astronauts and airplanes hanging on mine. In 1989 on the 20th anniversary on the moon landing, my mom took me to the Huntsville Space & Rocket Center where we got to get up close and personal with the Apollo 11 astronauts. They literally rose from the ground right in front of us. I have pictures somewhere to prove this, but my memory has them forever ingrained in all of their heroism.

About the 9th grade, my focus shifted to music. I love music. I’m not great at it, but it’s a passion of mine than I spent hours focusing on to improve. I decided to see where I could go in the industry and found an amazing program at Middle Tennessee State University where I could focus on the Music Industry / Business side. This included concert promotion, copyright law, press, marketing, research. Everything I loved but with a music spin. I even got to work on a focus group that assisted Sony Music and the Dixie Chicks and interned at MCA-Nashville that had artists like Vince Gill, Reba and Marty Stewart.

After graduating with my degree, I decided that being married was more important than the degree I just obtained and I followed my husband out of the state – to an area where the music industry isn’t as prevalent. I lucked my way into jobs for a church music newsletter and an entertainment attorney, before I found my current home in the home entertainment field. Now I spend my days running reports, making sure we have inventory, keeping schedules updated and enjoying a field I never thought I’d love.

I’m perfectly happy here, but if I had to grow up to be something else, I would want to be a world-traveler. Or maybe a librarian. Or The Librarian (if you haven’t seen these movies / series you are missing out!) where I’d get to do both. So I guess I want to be The Librarian when I grow up.  (FYI – I never thought I’d get this answer when I started this post, so I learned something today too)

50 Questions

Ok.  Maybe not 50 Questions, but I don’t want to stop and count them all.  I borrowed this from Stacy because I loved reading her answers and laughing at how similar mine are.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Snuck out: No Need.  My mom always knew where I was going
Broken a bone: Thankfully no
Cried myself to sleep: More than I can count
Been arrested: No
Felt lonely: Yes
Been depressed: Yes

WHAT’S YOUR:
Birthday: November 19.  I have an Amazon Wishlist if you want to plan ahead!!
Biggest fear: Losing my loved ones
Dream job: Right where I’m at.  I love the entertainment industry.
Dream car: Mini Convertible
Dream house: Small, beach-front place located somewhere warm

DO YOU:
Like someone: Sure.  I have quite a few friends
Love someone: Lots
Have tattoos: Not Yet
Have piercings: Double Ears
Party: With a book on my sofa

FAVORITE:
Artist: Harry Connick, Jr
Movie: Zoolander, San Andreas
Song: “Good to Be Alive” by Andy Grammer
Netflix series: Making a Murderer
Book: Oh good grief.  I’m addicted and this is an unfair question.
Color: Purple
Animal: English, Black Labs

THIS OR THAT:
Twitter or Facebook: Facebook
Twitter or Instagram: Instagram
Facebook or Instagram: Instagram
Coke or Pepsi: Coke Zero
Tea or coffee: Sweet Tea, I’m a Southern Girl
Tacos or pizza: Tacos
Winter or summer: Summer

WOULD YOU EVER:
Get married: Already have
Have kids: No thank you
Swim with sharks: Heck, yes.  Bring it!!
Eat rotten food: No way on earth.  I toss it the day before it expires
Marry a foreigner: This is a strange question.  If I loved them sure.  But I’m not leaving my U.S. of A.

Get to Know All About Me – Part II

N : NeedCoke Zero.  This should really say water, but I’m too stressed to get there

O : Orange or AppleApple.  I’m not a citrus kind of girl

P : Place to Shop : Hallmark.  I still believe in the power of a card.

Q : Quote“Make sure your worst enemy is not living between your own two ears.”

R : RestaurantLos Molcajetes Mexican Restaurant or Chick-Fil-A

S : Singer/BandI’m in a One Direction / 5 Seconds of Summer mood.  Yes, I’m 12.

T : T.V. ShowChicago Fire.  Old school TV – Law & Order and Scarecrow & Mrs. King

U : Unique InterestReading about World War II

V : Vanilla or ChocolateChocolate

W : Walmart or TargetWalmart.  Target had my credit card stolen once and I have a hard time going back.

X : Xtra Credit (You Decide) I’m a major introvert with a lot of strong opinions…

Y : Yogurt Shop (Frozen) : I don’t usually do yogurt.  But I love Shaved Ice!

Z : Zoo AnimalPandas!!

Get to Know All About Me – Part I

I saw this fun little survey on Pinterest as a get to know your teacher form.  I thought some of the questions were great though.

A : Author : Wow!  The first one and it’s already hard.  I love to read so choosing one isn’t possible, but if I have to I am going to go with Dick Wolf.  Not only does he have an amazing book series out, he’s the main man behind Law & Order; Chicago Fire and Chicago PD!

B : Birthday : My birthday is right around Thanksgiving.  November 19.  Every year.

C: Candy : I haven’t really met a candy I didn’t like, but my favorite will always be Peanut Butter Cups!

D : Dislikes : So many…  Corn.  Actually I love corn.  It just hates me.

E: Essential Item : A book in my hand.  I don’t leave the house without one.

F: Flower :  Flowers are beautiful.  I love yellow roses and tulips.

G : Gold or Silver : Platinum… 🙂

H : Hue (Color) : Purple all the way!

I : Ice Cream : My options here are limited, so I usually buy Breyers Neapolitan

J : January or July : I live in Texas – It’s hard to claim July, but I totally do.

K : Kids (#) :  I have one fur-kid named Vader

L : Lemon of Lime :  I’m pretty equal on these.  They both have their uses and I can sub them in and out of my water pretty easily. 

M : Magazine :  The only magazine I receive is Entertainment Weekly.